Exposure!

I'm so excited!  My hubby just walked in the room and handed me my kindle and on it is the new Susan Sanchez book!!!!!!!!  He downloaded it for me! I can't wait to read it!  It's called EXPOSURE!

You guys might remember I interviewed the author a while back and she told me that her short stories are really just sort of like teasers leading up to her full-length novel about Elise Dugar.  I can't wait until that comes out! We need more fiction stories on domestic discipline that accurately depict it.  That's what I love about these books.  They have some sex, which is true to life experience, but they also totally tap into the emotional and psychological benefits of spanking.

Here's a pic of the new book:

Here is the information on Amazon:  http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00HRIE9BE

If you haven't read the Susan Sanchez books, you're missing out!  They're easy reads and I would say even gripping, like I think about them long after I've put my kindle down for the day.  It's a series so you should start with the first one, though I think you could probably pick up any of them out of sequence and still get a feel for the characters; but if you want my advice, start with book one.

Okay, gotta fly, I'm off to read EXPOSURE!!  

Hard to Sit Down

I was too exhausted to get back on the computer and blog yesterday after my spanking and my husband was compassionate enough to let me out of it.  Trust me when I say I will NEVER lie to him or hide anything from him again.  I am amazed that my bottom isn't bruised because he used every tool we own on it.  I was sent to the corner several times during the process, bent over his knee, over the side of the bed, over the back of a chair and finally had to touch my toes for a solid strapping.  That's my least favorite position.

But, I apologized and he forgave me.  Clean slate!  It feels so good to not carry around a secret that eats away at the inside and makes me all jumpy and paranoid.  That's a horrible feeling and a terrible way to live day in and day out.  Even though I got my butt beaten and it's honestly a little hard to sit down today, I feel better and my husband and I are closer than we've ever been before.

That's the thing about domestic discipline that most people don't "get."  They are quick to judge it as kinky or abusive or wrong, but they don't see the upside.  When I do something I shouldn't, he holds me accountable, and that accountability makes me a better person because I am less likely to make the same mistakes over and over again, especially when I know the consequences.  AND it helps him release frustration and extend forgiveness.  Sometimes in marriage couples bury problems because they're too hard to talk about or too scary to face.  With domestic discipline, the balance of submission and dominance helps couples face those issues together, as a united team and not as two people pitted against one another.  It's a beautiful balance that most people don't understand because they can't get past the weirdness of it.  It's not mainstream but if it were, maybe the divorce rate wouldn't be so high.

I know I am loved when my husband takes the time to notice my actions and hold me accountable, but it's not just about misbehaving or correcting mistakes.  Sometimes women need an emotional release and being put over her loving partner's knee opens the flood gates and provides that release.  Just having my husband look at me and instinctively know when I am all bottled up inside and knotted and tense, and then have him take the time to teach me submission and spank me when needed is an enormous action of love.  Likewise, there are times when I know he has had a bad day and is on edge and sometimes I will crawl over his lap, offering up my bottom as a sacrificial reliever of his stress.  Those spankings are never as hard as punishment spankings, but hard enough to release his tension and then they always result in us ravaging each other's bodies, which is stress release alone.

Sometimes he spanks me because I have done something wrong and deserve to be punished, like yesterday; and sometimes he spanks me because I need to be reminded of my submissive nature and to keep the submission/dominance balance, and other times he spanks me because we both need it.  But whenever he spanks me, it is always out of love and because we are working together to make our relationship be the very best it can be.

I am thankful that I have a man in my life who is strong enough to hold the reigns for me and keep us on course.  I don't know what I would do without him.

About to be Disciplined

I'm sitting at my computer right now with my jeans and panties around my ankles.  It's part of my punishment.  My husband has instructed me to sit with my bum bare and blog about why I am about to be disciplined.  I'm sort of nervous because I know this is going to be a long and really hard spanking.  I also know I deserve what I'm going to get and probably even more.

Here's what happened.  I got a call from an old beau of mine over the holiday and he was in town and wanted to have coffee.  I don't have any feelings for the man at all, other than just that we went to high school together and sometimes it's fun to relive the memories and waltz down memory lane.  I didn't tell my husband about the call and I lied to him about going shopping when I really went and met my old beau. Now, nothing happened between us, just coffee.  I'm not having an affair, nor do I want to have an affair. And I only saw him just this once.  Anyway, my old beau text me this morning to thank me for meeting him and talking and said he'll be in town next month and can we meet again.  My husband saw the text and now I'm in trouble for lying to him.  I know, I know, I deserve what's coming.

So, here I sit fulfilling the first part of the punishment:  confessing it online to my six hundred regular blog readers.  Then I will get spanked.  And the third part of my punishment is that I will have to come back on line when it is over and tell all of you about my spanking.

My husband just walked in and told me it's time to wrap up this blog and go stand in the corner.  Wish me luck.

It's a New Year!

The holiday season has been hectic and crazy for me, but I do have some stories to share, one in particular involving a brand new hair brush I received for Christmas.  I'll try to start posting again this week.  I hope everyone had a spanking good Christmas and New Years and that your resolutions, like mine, are effective and prosperous.